Time to fix on my shelf...
My ex-collegue's getting married... to another collegue's daughter. He's like 2 years older than me? Which is already like er... kinda old already? -..- Suddenly the idea of getting married late isn't that appealing anymore. I don't find myself having the drive i had a few years back... the dating drive that is. Girls out there just don't appeal anymore. At least not intellectually.
Sometimes i wonder if it would have been better if i had just let myself go and gotten married to ONE of those ex-girlfriends of mine. I'm pretty sure it would have happened if i had not been so adamant about my principles or my beliefs. If i had just ignored the Holy Spirit's mournful cry and constant tugging of my heart...
Ironically I've reached a stage whereby common girls don't intrigue me anymore. Just being happy together when we're dating isn't what's important anymore. I think i need to find a female philosopher hah. I look around and i'm just not interested in anyone. Oops... i hope none of the hopefuls are reading this haha... Bleah my arse they exist.
Yet... There is this ONE girl who's so off the charts and so not what my "Dream" girl should be like who always pops into my mind when i'm on the verge of giving up. Maybe its cos she's so off-limits? She's like the only person i'm unable to figure out. A mystery always. And i can't for the life of me remember her face >.< Shrouded in mystique? Bah... i'm just being desperate... Anyway it'll pass once she gets married and becomes the tai tai she had always wanted (or claim to want...).
Oh and i asked her be my partner for my friend's wedding at Radin Mas Community Centre ^ ^ Yea its a muslim wedding. Its a tentative green light. But knowing her, i'm getting myself ready for an E-brake anytime... heh...
Lalala... I won't be hitched to a godless soul so quit worrying la... How far from God are agnostics? Probably just next door? Perhaps God will knock if i ask... daily...
Bleah... perhaps i should just keep my feet planted to the ground and concentrate on the tasks He has for me~
Sometimes i wonder if it would have been better if i had just let myself go and gotten married to ONE of those ex-girlfriends of mine. I'm pretty sure it would have happened if i had not been so adamant about my principles or my beliefs. If i had just ignored the Holy Spirit's mournful cry and constant tugging of my heart...
Ironically I've reached a stage whereby common girls don't intrigue me anymore. Just being happy together when we're dating isn't what's important anymore. I think i need to find a female philosopher hah. I look around and i'm just not interested in anyone. Oops... i hope none of the hopefuls are reading this haha... Bleah my arse they exist.
Yet... There is this ONE girl who's so off the charts and so not what my "Dream" girl should be like who always pops into my mind when i'm on the verge of giving up. Maybe its cos she's so off-limits? She's like the only person i'm unable to figure out. A mystery always. And i can't for the life of me remember her face >.< Shrouded in mystique? Bah... i'm just being desperate... Anyway it'll pass once she gets married and becomes the tai tai she had always wanted (or claim to want...).
Oh and i asked her be my partner for my friend's wedding at Radin Mas Community Centre ^ ^ Yea its a muslim wedding. Its a tentative green light. But knowing her, i'm getting myself ready for an E-brake anytime... heh...
Lalala... I won't be hitched to a godless soul so quit worrying la... How far from God are agnostics? Probably just next door? Perhaps God will knock if i ask... daily...
Bleah... perhaps i should just keep my feet planted to the ground and concentrate on the tasks He has for me~
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