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Love Asia

Out of boredom and perhaps SOMETHING else, i went and got myself the DVD for Love Asia.

Now in case you have no idea what Love Asia is, its a DVD video for the photo shoot of TEN top models in asia. Girls like Maggie Q (Yes Maggie!!! Oh and she's the one who came up with the concept apparently... and she's da producer heh), Lin Chiling!!!, Zhou Qiao Queenie, Mayuko Kawamata, Lee Ka Hye (Kae), Aysha Bashir, Wong Pui Ha Almen, Jacqueline Alblas (Singaporean!!!), Yossavadee Hassadeevichit (Yo) and Grace Tagle.

Due to copyright issues AND the fact that i'm too lazy to search for their pictures to put here, you've to go search for pictures of the less known models heh.

Well, some thoughts after watching the DVD.

I'm impressed by Chiling! She actually speaks proper english and plays the piano! And she's really really soft spoken and shy-like. Really oriental and all. A really refined and cultured girl. No wonder so many guys are falling for her, and not just because of her good looks.

Jac is hot, pretty and sexy, but somehow i'm not attracted to girls like her anymore haha... Finally growing up maybe? ^ ^

Queenie... now thats a babe for you. Her killer smile got me good haha... and i like her views on love. Oh and then there's this thing about sex that she comments on. That sex is maybe not very good in the beginning, then better towards the middle, much much better towards the later part of middle, and then it just starts to go downhill and sucks in the end of a relationship haha...

Well... go get it at TS if you want to watch. OR you could BEG me hahaha...

Just for kicks

Pretty... Haha...

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Hilarious video from The New York Times website haha...

http://video.on.nytimes.com/?fr_story=d14603c1e23e6ce37920a8134a2e27b1405a4991&rf=bm

*coughs* copy cat *

Roads...

The thing with roads, is that they seem to everywhere. And then when you least expect it, you suddenly can't go anywhere.

If you know what i'm talking about, you must be smarter than i am. Hah.

Someone was talking about mid-life crisis just not too long ago. Hmmm... seems like i've come to a similar stage in life?

Just a couple of years ago I was confident that there wasn't anything i couldn't do. That even if i were to quit the army, i can definitely find something i love doing, and survive doing that. Yet today, posed with the same question, i find myself unable, or unwilling to take that step, into an unknown frontier.

My boss, who's retiring at the end of the year, recently told me that with some hard work, i can probably retire a Lt. Col. Not too bad for a screw up with no degree. Something i'd have scoffed at in the past. Yet now, that possible future doesn't seem so bad anymore.

Why???

Well, I know why. My guiding light, my pillar of fire in darkness is gone. Well, to put it in the right perspective, I had abandoned it. HIM. Then again, not exactly abandoned... but I've chosen to shy away from Him. Much like how Adam and Eve hid from God after they had sinned maybe? I don't know.

Its horrible. Knowing that henceforth every step i take will be without His blessings. No longer can i turn and look to Him for comfort and strength. I'm sorry. Not to Him, not to anyone else, but to myself. Well, ok, i'm sorry to everyone too. Sigh.

Don't ask me what happened. I have no idea how to put into words what transpired. Beyond salvation comes to mind. But i know thats not true. I think i just want some time alone, 40 yrs would be good... Heh.

***

In my office right now, at 1 am. Felt that its about time i explained to ANYONE who cared what happened to me. In a really vague way yes. Anyway, gonna be in the forest on exercise for the next 4 days, so don't bother trying to reach me. Not that i'll answer any calls anyway.

That being said, there are somethings, big things, in my life that i've decided i'll do. Perhaps not the most right thing to do, or the proper time to decide such things. But if nothing changes in the next year or so, i'll do it. And i'll bear the consequences. As if i can choose not to bear the consequences of my actions! Bah...

I've not disappeared or left for good. I'll still be here. I think? But don't expect any replies from me. And someday i'll be back. Heh. Terminator style? When everyone's all grown up, maybe married? Children? O.o" Ok THAT's abit too long to be away. Anyway, till then, do take care of OUR Church ya? Sorry you guys gotta take up my share as well. Heyyyy who knows? Maybe i'll be back next week? Haha...

Lalala... And to YOU. (Whoever thinks is the YOU haha...) Sorry what I had hoped would happen if I didn't screw up didn't happen. -..-

Yawn... Zzz