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I'm a Laughing man fan! Hahaha... Oh if you don't know what this is all about, watch Ghost in the Shell 1st Gig ^ ^

When do you realise...

That you've been going Sakae too often...

When everyone working there recognises you and can predict what you're going to order.

When you notice the waitresses trying to hide a smile when delivering your order.

When you over hear whispers and giggles about the guy who's here alone again.

When you catch the waitresses' barely controlled smiles as they say Please come again!

When you realise you have enough receipts for 2 more Sakae VIP cards...

Simple things in LIFE

Very interesting mail courtesy of Char ^ ^

Time to fix on my shelf...

My ex-collegue's getting married... to another collegue's daughter. He's like 2 years older than me? Which is already like er... kinda old already? -..- Suddenly the idea of getting married late isn't that appealing anymore. I don't find myself having the drive i had a few years back... the dating drive that is. Girls out there just don't appeal anymore. At least not intellectually.

Sometimes i wonder if it would have been better if i had just let myself go and gotten married to ONE of those ex-girlfriends of mine. I'm pretty sure it would have happened if i had not been so adamant about my principles or my beliefs. If i had just ignored the Holy Spirit's mournful cry and constant tugging of my heart...

Ironically I've reached a stage whereby common girls don't intrigue me anymore. Just being happy together when we're dating isn't what's important anymore. I think i need to find a female philosopher hah. I look around and i'm just not interested in anyone. Oops... i hope none of the hopefuls are reading this haha... Bleah my arse they exist.

Yet... There is this ONE girl who's so off the charts and so not what my "Dream" girl should be like who always pops into my mind when i'm on the verge of giving up. Maybe its cos she's so off-limits? She's like the only person i'm unable to figure out. A mystery always. And i can't for the life of me remember her face >.< Shrouded in mystique? Bah... i'm just being desperate... Anyway it'll pass once she gets married and becomes the tai tai she had always wanted (or claim to want...).

Oh and i asked her be my partner for my friend's wedding at Radin Mas Community Centre ^ ^ Yea its a muslim wedding. Its a tentative green light. But knowing her, i'm getting myself ready for an E-brake anytime... heh...

Lalala... I won't be hitched to a godless soul so quit worrying la... How far from God are agnostics? Probably just next door? Perhaps God will knock if i ask... daily...

Bleah... perhaps i should just keep my feet planted to the ground and concentrate on the tasks He has for me~

New Age Woman...

Been watching Ghost in the Shell recently on Youtube and was totally mesmerised by the lead character in the story, the "Major". She's a hot HOT babe on the outside but all steel inside, and i mean it literally as well haha...

There's this male subordinate of hers who's obviously smitten by her, yet at the same time... intimidated? Probably why he never did openly make any moves on her. I was just thinking about it. If i were to know such a woman in real life, someone whom i admire, a high achiever, and comparatively i'm just a normal or even low achiever by this society's standards, how would i feel?

Hmmm... I think it'll be hard making the first move, and i probably never will... just like that guy in the show haha... She has to make the first move i guess. And having done that, there won't be any "problems" anymore so to speak. I mean, once i know she loves me, it doesn't matter that she's my boss or anything. Even if i know the number of "successful" people she has to come in contact with, all of whom will definitely try to gain her attention, i think i'll still be fine? She can be whatever she wants outside, but when we're spending time together, so long as she's my girl, it'll be cool.

I guess the only problem is, most successful women bring their authority in the workplace back home... Serves us right for not being high achievers ourselves huh? Haha... *Shrug* Whatever... I'm NOT about to change the life i've decided on just so i can be with a girl who won't look up to me just cos i ain't a high flyer. ^ ^

Are you a fool?

Psalm 14:1

Only fools say in their hearts, "There is no God." They are corrupt, and their actions are evil; no one does good! (NLT)

Been reading "Ten Great Works of Philosophy" for the past month or so. Slowest going book for me, EVER. Probably cause i find myself pausing every few sentenses to contemplate and digest what i've just read? Some of the stuff are really deep and meaningful, its amazing how alike we are even with two milleniums between us. Mankind has been searching for a meaning to life ever since its beginning, and will continue doing so until they finally come before God.

Socrates believed that there are 2 possible endings to a man's life. 
1) That death is a state nothingness and utter unconsciousness
2) Death is a migration of one's soul from one plane of existence into another

The first can be likened to that of a sleep without dreams, which is to say that eternity would then be just a single night. This is death without God. No heaven, no other life. We exit this world into nothingness. There is no judgement waiting for us, no penalty for those who had committed great evil in their lives and gotten away with it.

Then there is The Ontological Proof of St Anselm. His argument for the existence of God is that, in order to say "There is no God", one must have had an understanding and definition of what God is, that is "That thing than which nothing greater can be conceived". And having this understanding, it would mean that the person would have acknowledged the existence of God already.

Its ok if you can't bend your brain round this paragraph... took me quite awhile to sort out the twists and turns within it. Add to the fact that i probably didn't explain it as well as St Anselm did, but his argument was written in Thees and Thous... Didn't think would have helped you either haha...

Now do you understand the verse i had typed out in the beginning? A fool who contracdicts himself. Corrupt and evil believing there 
is no final judgement...

This is like the tip of the iceberg of what i've read and am digesting la... Haven't really had the time to think through everything and present my thoughts in a easier meal. Oh well... Go read it yourself haha...

Karate kid

Woohoo! I kicked open a door today! Haha... Some dude in camp locked himself out of a room with the ONLY keys inside. We tried pushing the door hoping the lock would give way, but it didn't. So i took 2 steps back and kicked it open. Hardly felt any resistance ^ ^

Hmm... a sudden explosive force is exponentially more powerful than a force that gradually builds up.

Man it felt good. Isn't everyday you get to break down a door haha... Oh the whole door hinge flew off though... Now it can't close :D

What defines us?

Had actually sent a mobile post last night while doing duty in camp, apparently it got lost in transit...

Its just something that had been bugging me for quite sometime. About how we look at the people around us and how we see them. What is it really that defines who we are to the people around us? I think to a very large extent our occupation has become the definitive factor. "Oh Linda the school teacher?" "Samuel, the one who works in IBM?" Then again, i suppose it only applies to working adults. For teens it would probably be: "Jack from RI?" "Cindy from St. Nicholas?" Schools.

Hmmm... wait a minute... i think i see a pattern there. Organisations? Christians would probably go: "Gerald from CHC" "Pam from Calvary" in their minds.

Anyway, its not about HOW we remember people. But how the organisations that we remember people by affects the sub-conscious value or Price-Tag that we pin onto them. Jack from RI is obviously smarter than Ryan from some other neighbourhood school. Bryan from IBM is definitely more capable than Wilson from some local small set up. All these without actually having any concrete evidence. Its what people call presumptions? Yet i believe that many people are bound and weighed down by these generally held perceptions so much so that who they REALLY are never surface. They become defined by the organisation that they're identified with.

Ok not everyone bothers about how people perceive them. Nonetheless it IS an existing social phenomenon. And i guess i'm whining about it cos of the numerous suggestions that i've received about changing my job. Whats wrong with being a soldier? Um... ya, the usual wrongs. Sure, with my "abilities" i SHOULD be able to carve out a bright future elsewhere. Sure, but that is my choice. Do you mean that if i were an entreprenuer today and not a soldier you would want to be with me?

Think about that. The person is the same person, but if he had a different job, belonged to a different organisation, would your valuation and perception of him change?